I miss seeing HER face so badly it burns my insides! I think of HIM every single passing day! I miss our fights….I miss our laughter! Life without HER has never seemed right! Life without HIM is empty! I just want to call HER and tell HIM about my day! I want to dance and sing and fly and swim with HER! I want to hold HIM close and never let go! ………..
Losing a friend or family member is never easy! A sudden death leaves you with a hole in your life that can never be filled! I think of all the friends and family I have had to say goodbye to and my heart breaks all over again! Life may go on but it is never the same! I miss HER! I miss HIM! With every life lost apart of me breaks…..I glue myself back together and try to move on…..but whole I am NOT!
Seems strange to think about how my life used to be. Not so many years ago…still so many years ago that I doubt I could ever go back! So much can change with just the blink of an eye! 7 years ago I spent Valentine’s Day alone…wishing I had someone to share the day with. Dreading the thought of spending another V-day alone!! Little did I know that would be my last V-day alone EVER!! Just several weeks after that I found out I was going to be a mother….and it slowly sank in that I would never be alone again! I would always have a special person in my life to call my Valentine! Slowly everything started to fall into place. Before I knew it not only was I a mother but I had also became someone special’s wife. YES….fate had finally worked that special magic….I had finally found my Mr. Right! From the first phone call I just knew it…I knew life had led me back into the arms of the man I belonged to. The man I was destined to be with. I can’t explain how I knew. Just one of those things…you just know! 14 days from now we share our 5th wedding anniversary and I couldn’t be any happier. Sure we have had our battles…life has went up and down…but I have never looked back and I have never felt I wasn’t exactly where I am supposed to be.
There have been fights….long talkless nights….tears….battles….screams…………………….there have also been smiles…and sleepless nights from talking so much….laughter…special memories…picture perfect moments!!! Days I look at him and my heart feels as if it will explode out of my chest from simply loving him to much. I try to vision my life without my husband and it doesn’t exist. I wouldn’t even know what direction to turn first! I wouldn’t know how to breath or wake up….life without him would be awful. When I think about life without my husband I sorda laugh inside….because I know it’s a pointless thought and I throw it out. Because when you know you are in love….and you know you are where you want to be…..YOU Just Know :) Marrying my daughter’s father was the best gift of all.
My husband and my daughter are the 2 very best Valentine’s I could ever ask for. Because of them I will never spend Valentine’s day alone again….and that I just know :) <3
…………………….I love you…………………….xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :)
just a silly pic :)
Future Rocker ;)